Thursday, June 9, 2022
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"Choking on your thoughts of what used to be"
My Best Friend, My Therapist, My Comedian, My Prankster, My Co-conspirator, but above all My Brother. When I hear the word "Brother" it is your name and face that pop up in my mind. I barely even have any memories from before you came into my life. My oldest memory of music is with you. You and I sitting on the back steps of the Yellow House listening to a terrible 80s cassette tape called Rap Masters. Memories like you and I at 7 and 5 years old stealing hatchets from your dad's garage and spending all day chopping down your neighbors tree. The time you saved my life when my neck was caught in a rope when I was hanging from tree. Even the times you would want to agitate me and you squeeze my toes together real hard keeping me from breaking free while you laughed at me. Watching DBZ everyday after school and smoking cigarettes during the commercial breaks. You hogging my remote control to watch the B.E.T. channel because you didnt have cable tv at the time. Just hanging out all day and barely even talking but just enjoying being around each other. I'll never forget the trail you left in my front yard from walking over everyday, sometimes multiple times a days. The ground was dented and the grass was all dead and my Grandpa always complained about it, but I loved that it was there. You physically affected the world coming over to see me. Even after you and your family moved we never lost touch and you were always there for me. The crazy phone calls we would have had me laughing almost non stop. No one has ever been able to make me laugh as hard and as genuine as you did. You knew me so well and could get any emotion or reaction out of me at any time you chose. On some of my worse days you would randomly call and make me laugh almost instantly and all the troubles faded away. You were always there for me and always had back no matter what. You also made me so proud of the loving father that you became. Hearing talk about your kids and wife was wonderful thing. Memories like these are all thats left of you and its the most painful thing I have ever felt losing you. I'll hold tight to these memories and mourn you forever. This pain is the price that I must pay for all the love that was shared between us. I'll carry this pain with me until the end when we get to meet again. I could've never asked for a better friend or Brother. I love you more than you could ever know and always will. It took some time to find these words and they flooded my eyes with tears. There are just not enough words to honor you. My heart is broken and can't be mended. That is how Great you were and how important you were to me.Your favorite ninja turtle was Raphael but you my Michaelangelo, my favorite. I Guess this is goodbye for now. Or as we always said...
"Later"
Rest peacefully my Brother
